The mother of late police officer |Oma N!aici, who died in a fire at the K-9 barracks in Windhoek, is finding it hard to come to terms with his death. 

In a village called Deǂua, some 12 kilometres from Tsumkwe in the Otjozondjupa Region, is heartbroken |Asa Nxani.

She recounted the day she heard the devastating news after returning from church.

It was Nxani's younger brother, also a police officer, who broke the news to her that Oma N!aici died in a fire and burnt beyond recognition in Windhoek. 

She was numb and has more questions than answers.

"As I sit here, my heart is hurting, and I'm not feeling well. They were seven, but the other six survived. I'm still thinking that if the house burnt and they were seven, why is it that it's only him who lost his life? Was there no way he could have been saved?" she asked.

She added that the last time she saw her son was seven years ago when he came for a three-day visit. 

Nxani gave birth to three sons only, and they all are now dead. 

N!aici was all she had, and even though she rarely saw him, he kept her going. 

"My firstborn who worked in Omaruru died after hanging himself with a shoelace there, while my lastborn died after a stabbing at Grashoek. Now this one has burnt to ashes. He was the only one left who I used to look up to and is also now gone. I feel empty and hurt."

She added that the police have been helpful, including erecting a tent at the house, and would transport her to Windhoek to visit the site at which her only remaining son took his last breath.

Funeral arrangements will be announced after her return from Windhoek. 

nbc News contacted the Police Acting Spokesperson Chief Inspector Elifas Kuwinga on what exactly caused the fire, and he responded that he had not yet received the report.